Happy Death !

Is there a thing like peaceful death... Will anybody die with the satisfaction of living the life full ? A painless, smooth, lucky (!) death...

These questions came to my mind when I heard about the sudden dismissal of my friend's grandpa. He was saying, grandpa didn't spend many days at hospital, he was not in pain, he met all this Loved ones the day of his death. Will that make it a lucky death ??? I don't think so.

In my opinion, nobody will leave this world happy, content. Including the ones who kill themselves. They are killing themselves not because they had everything is life and nothing more they need or expect from life. Mostly because they are not able to see a future the way they want or they don't have any more expectation in life, at least at that moment. So they are not dying happy either.

How can one leave this world happy... When there is something exciting happens everyday. A new member adding to the family. The happiness in seeing a new day itself. The celebrations or moment you were waiting for a long time. Happiness is never ending and more exciting each time. If you seen three generations after you, will you be content... You might want to see the baby from the third generation grow.. Or want to see the forth... You may call it greedy, but I will call it the way of life. Ever ready to embrace the new day. To enjoy the happiness and dreams it brings everyday.

My motto - Live this moment. There may be a hundred reason to feel tensed and sad now, but I will concentrate on that silly thing which will make me happy :D From within....

I Loved This Onam Vacation...

It can not get better.. It was awesome... I loved this Onam and I am sure I royally compensated for missing last one... Thank You Family for another Onam, whose memories I can take with me...

I told you about my sister's 'surprise visit' in my last post. They did come :) And sure it was a big surprise for the family. Big one because they came to Ammomma ( granny ) house directly and not our house - reason, our house was locked as me and parents were visiting Granny :D The kids, my parents, Mamaji and all were so surprised that their eyes became popped and their jaws dropped, well almost.

I liked their surprise, crazy visit. Hope and with they will never lose it.

There was a bigger surprise waiting the next day... Mamaji has bought a plot near the Athirappilly waterfalls and we went there. One side of the plot has a stream and 'we' kids had a good time. Then we went to the falls itself and it was awesome. It was raining, but in that , the beauty of the falls were more wilder and it was a pleasant scene. When you go there, please go in the rainy season to enjoy it in the full might. Remember, avoid festival season as we were stuck in the traffic for almost three hours. And girls, please avoid white tops for good when you come here...

My computer had a virus attack, so was not able to upload the pics. Will do it next week, this pic is from my last trip.

Happy Onam...

For us Malayalees, Onam is the most special time of the year, Vishu, not withstanding. It is the time when everybody try to be home and when all the cousins, grannies , uncle-aunts meet. In my family, we always try to be together, Kunju, my sister who is married, will visit home with Aliyan, her husband each year. This time she came last weekend, and today they might give a surprise visit !

Mama was making pookalam for the last ten days and morning we had pooja and all. Dad prepared Paayasam, his speciality for every occasion. This time he made Cheru Payar Paayasam, and it came so yummy... :D

Last year I missed Onam. I was in the US and was all alone. Interestingly every day we prepared very Indian lunch there and it was the Onam day I didn't prepare anything and was having a re-heated sandwich for lunch. Add to that my friend was stuck at work and I was left all alone in the big hotel all by myself... Though I never drink other than at home, that day I drank wine to high... I remember I was sad and exhausted after the drink and slept, woke up only for dinner...


This year I have compensated for it. Royally. Erased one item from my long to-compensate list. I will post photos when I reach Bangalore, too bad my home PC got virus :(

For everybody there, I wish a Happy Onam...

I Am Happy

For the last few days I am happy. Though nothing has changed in my life these days, the reason for my happiness is that the ones I care and Love are happy now. Guess the best way to be happy is to see the one we care for is happy. At least for me that work fine.

They are happy not because the reason for them being unhappy is no more there or they won a lottery or something. The reason is they got to see that there are a few reasons to be happy now, not only the reason to go sad. And I am happy because at lease to very some extend I was the reason for them to realise it.

Wish this happiness will last forever. Not just by changing the perspective, but with the real reasons to be happy. Till then, smile for the small reasons to be happy.

And remember your smile makes me happy, a joy nothing else can give...

Let's Make Our Own Paradise

നമ്മുക്ക് നാമേ പണിവതു നാകം, നരകവുമതു പോലെ

These two lines can be translated as ' We build our Heaven so do hell'. Well, I have another view about it. In my opinion, our heaven or hell, we SHOULD build it. Only then we will have have a content life and can say I am living my life.

I hate when some order me what to do, how to live etc. Others can suggest. They can disagree. Never ever can tell me how to. As long as nobody else can read my mind, decide my thoughts, set my goals/dreams, CAN BE ME, better leave my life to me.

When you say the restaurant / the food I had is of bad choice, especially when it is my regular place, you are forgetting one thing. I go there, I have it because I like it. You don't like it doesn't suggest nobody else should. I hate gopi dishes, but that's a fast moving item. I hate it doesn't make it bad. It is high time you need to appreciate and respect other's choices.

You can ask/order/suggest a kid on its every step. Me, better leave my life to me. Thank You.

Stop And Reflect

We are busy. Very busy. Neck deep in work, commitment. Engaged every moment. 24 hour is not enough. Dreams hijacked by work, maybe it’s coding, design whatever it is.

Well, one of my friends is hospitalised. Reason –I don’t know. But he is hospitalised. Though it may not be the best way, but he is getting a break !

I didn’t realise how fast I was moving my life till I was hospitalised. Was down with Typhoid for four weeks, of which two I spent in hospital. Too weak to move my body, let alone tension about work. It was like a compulsive break but it worked. It was then I realised the importance to slow down and give importance to life as much as to work.

Now, my life is better balanced. I am able to do better at work. Though still at times work eats into my dreams, it is far less frequent. I am happy. My boss is happy (?)

Stop and reflect your life. Do not wait for your chance to get hospitalised! Good Luck

Happy Shashtipoorthy My Dear Dad...

Today, August 4th, Achan turns 60. Man, that’s something. Living 60 gracious years. Still got so much life left. His energy and passion to do new things, update himself about everything he needs - he is my inspiration.

He is the reason for what I am now, not ignoring mom, still Achan is my hero. He taught me how to stand up for what I believe. He showed me I need to justify nobody but me. He showed me how to keep an attitude and be right at the same time. How to Love unconditionally, even when the other may not Love you back the way you expect. I can stand for my belief even if it is against the views of someone I care for, and can be still right. How to handle the storm within and be a rock others can lean on, spread joy and hope and strength the situation demands. I never seen him broken, though had reasons to be.

Dad, you gave me life. Taught me how to fight the good fight I believe in. I Love you.